Hey Everyone!
Just thought I'd do a little happy list to make the biological clock that's getting louder in my head stop ticking! :)
1. Katie - When I took care of her the Monday morning her parents were away, I went to her room when she woke up crying for mommy and she saw me and broke out into this HUGE grin! When we were watching cartoons in "the big bed" she kept looking over at me and smiling. I've never been looked at quite like that. It's the reason people have children and the reason people fall in love.
2. Curly beach hair (from a spray bottle)
3. My Little Baseball pitcher - granted I don't see him anymore, but he still makes me smile every once in awhile. I try to forget he's not coming back next year.
4. Going to see the Phils with AJ on Monday (oh, Aim, I'm supposed to tell you the store where he is sold out of the Vera Bradley stuff within the first two days of the going out of business sale.)
5. Karen's Housewarming. The last 4 or 5 hours were my favorite. I wish the rest of my life could be so fun - friends who live close by, getting together, drinking and having fun.
6. Red, White and Blue popcicles
7. The idea of decorating a new house (even though the money I will have after I buy said house may preclude me from decorating it the way I'd like. ;) )
8. Postponing my Yard Sale to thoroughly scour the grounds for more stuff to sell! :)
9. Lunches with mom
10. Watering in only a week! :) YAY!!!!!
To Quote the LOVELY All-American Rejects:
"Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold"
Happy Weekend!
Friday, July 21, 2006
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Until Death Do Us Part....
Well, it really has been SO long since I've been here. It's not that I don't have anything to say, just can't get my brain to remember much these days. I have a fish memory. A profound thought will come into my head and I'll go "oh. I wonder about that." and then it's gone. No introspection or analysis.
This latest thing just stuck in my head and I can't wrap my little head around it. My mom's Uncle Ray has been in the hospital. He's out and in the healthcare section of the assisted living facility where they live. He and my grandfather's only sister (of 12 kids...poor woman)met when she was 14. They've been together ever since. She's now 87. We went to visit my Uncle Ray today. He said his illness has been hard on him. They've been apart almost a month. Not really that she hasn't seen him or visited him as he's been in and out of the hospital and in the health care wing, just a mere hallway or two away from their residence, but they've been sleeping apart and not really together in the same place.
As we were leaving I said to my mom, "It just boggles my mind to #1 be with someone that long and #2 (and most importantly)miss them when you are separated for any length of time.". She smiled and a little giggle escaped her lips. It's just so hard to imagine ever feeling that way about someone. It's really baffling to think of 73 years with anyone, let alone the same person and still feeling as though they were put on this earth just for you and not imagining a world without them. I'm still mystifyed by this.
It's been a long week of me taking care of my grandparents. I've been out of work for one month next week and I have yet to have a free day to myself. One week at convention, got home and Kare came to visit (which was great, but it was still DOING something, going somewhere, not the carefree "what am I going to do today" feeling), then spent last week running food and visiting with my grandparents every day. I'm ready for a break. This Sunday it starts again as I'm going to see Amy and Katie, then house and Maggie sitting for Amy's parents - I'm looking forward to floating in a pool for a few days before I drive back. Kare's housewarming is the following weekend, then Trish's shower the weekend after that, then off to OCMD for the last weekend in July. August comes and brings something on the 6th, then my birthday weekend and back to work. Sometimes I'd almost rather have vacation time and work 12 months, because so far this summer, I just don't feel rested. Lately I feel more and more annoyed and easily agitated at everything. I think I need a rest. Every feel that way? Now I've got this 73 years thing on my brain.....Isn't it wrong to feel STRESSED and BUSY on your Summer Vacation?!?!?!?
Hopefully, it's just the stresses of the last week and I'll calm down and enjoy the rest of my summer off, as it will probably be the last vacation day I get. I am going to start looking for Sunday jobs in an attempt to supplement my income and hope whatever I do will carry into the summer next year. It means no days off or weekends for me and that always overloads me. I just don't see any other way.
Anyway, the fireworks are coming on t.v., so I'm gonna go! Happy 4th Everyone!
This latest thing just stuck in my head and I can't wrap my little head around it. My mom's Uncle Ray has been in the hospital. He's out and in the healthcare section of the assisted living facility where they live. He and my grandfather's only sister (of 12 kids...poor woman)met when she was 14. They've been together ever since. She's now 87. We went to visit my Uncle Ray today. He said his illness has been hard on him. They've been apart almost a month. Not really that she hasn't seen him or visited him as he's been in and out of the hospital and in the health care wing, just a mere hallway or two away from their residence, but they've been sleeping apart and not really together in the same place.
As we were leaving I said to my mom, "It just boggles my mind to #1 be with someone that long and #2 (and most importantly)miss them when you are separated for any length of time.". She smiled and a little giggle escaped her lips. It's just so hard to imagine ever feeling that way about someone. It's really baffling to think of 73 years with anyone, let alone the same person and still feeling as though they were put on this earth just for you and not imagining a world without them. I'm still mystifyed by this.
It's been a long week of me taking care of my grandparents. I've been out of work for one month next week and I have yet to have a free day to myself. One week at convention, got home and Kare came to visit (which was great, but it was still DOING something, going somewhere, not the carefree "what am I going to do today" feeling), then spent last week running food and visiting with my grandparents every day. I'm ready for a break. This Sunday it starts again as I'm going to see Amy and Katie, then house and Maggie sitting for Amy's parents - I'm looking forward to floating in a pool for a few days before I drive back. Kare's housewarming is the following weekend, then Trish's shower the weekend after that, then off to OCMD for the last weekend in July. August comes and brings something on the 6th, then my birthday weekend and back to work. Sometimes I'd almost rather have vacation time and work 12 months, because so far this summer, I just don't feel rested. Lately I feel more and more annoyed and easily agitated at everything. I think I need a rest. Every feel that way? Now I've got this 73 years thing on my brain.....Isn't it wrong to feel STRESSED and BUSY on your Summer Vacation?!?!?!?
Hopefully, it's just the stresses of the last week and I'll calm down and enjoy the rest of my summer off, as it will probably be the last vacation day I get. I am going to start looking for Sunday jobs in an attempt to supplement my income and hope whatever I do will carry into the summer next year. It means no days off or weekends for me and that always overloads me. I just don't see any other way.
Anyway, the fireworks are coming on t.v., so I'm gonna go! Happy 4th Everyone!
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