Mae West, Puffy Shirts and More! :)

I’m in a Blogging kind of mood, so I figured I’d write a bit. It’s all just random stuff.Fasten Your Seatbelts. It’s gonna be a bumpy ride. ;)

How do parents let go? We’ve been having a lot of Senior Nights, as the end of the Winter Season approached. They made me sad. I’ve really grown attached to and enjoyed the Senior Class of our basketball and wrestling teams. I’m going to miss them when they stop coming to see me everyday. I’m happy for them. I loved college, it was WONDERFUL. I wish them the same. I’m just so sad for me! :)

I’ve been fighting the feeling for the last year or so to pick up everything and move to Florida. It might be easier if I didn’t love my job so much. Now, I might love a job down there much better, but I feel I should stay in this one that I love. I think it’s more the urge to do SOMETHING. Unfortunately, the something is usually drastic or time consuming. I know me….it happens when I get bored, or complacent. In the last 3 months I’ve wanted to snowboard, move to the Carribbean (there was a job in the Virgin Island I thought about applying to), take a surfing trip to Australia. See? The only RATIONAL new thing that’s entered my head is learning conversational Spanish. I might try and take a class in the Spring.

I’m going to look at a house on Sunday. I was looking at some stuff online and found one I MIGHT be able to afford. We’ll see how it looks. I’ve been thinking perhaps living at home as really reverted my back to high school. I figured maybe I’d feel more comfortable having a social life if I could do it quietly…without my parents knowing. Not that I would do anything I couldn’t tell them about, but maybe I’d join a book club or something where I could have people to MY house or go on a date, knowing he wouldn’t have to pick me up at my parent’s house….things like that.

I’m going to a Brain Injury Summit at The Meadowlands tomorrow. One of the speakers is a renown Head Injury guy (he invented a concussion grading system – it’s now named after him). I can’t WAIT to hear him speak. Maybe while I’m there, I’ll find the Whippet! :) Anyway, I bought a shirt to go with my suit. I can’t tell if it’s cute, dressy and feminine or would make me a great candidate for the “Puffy Shirt” episode of Seinfeld! (Jill – “But I Don’t WANNA be a Pirate!” ;) ) I think it’s because I don’t see what place ruffles have on a shirt. Stupid designers….but then, I kind of liked this one. I’m sure pictures will be taken, I’ll let you guys decided for yourself.

Monday is our ATSNJ meeting. I have to be there at some ridiculous hour of the morning because I have been given our display and have to set it up before people get there. I hate not only this job/responsibility so much I often wish the display would spontaneously combust and I wouldn’t budget for a new one! :)

I have 3 ridiculous-hour-of-the-morning days almost in a row (Thanks Kare, for picking Noon! I can sleep in! :) ). I hate that! I will be a witch on wheels by Monday! Poor ATSNJ members! (Maybe I can use sleep deprivation and hormones as an excuse when the display “accidentally” falls out of the car on the way there?!?!?! :) ) Not only do I have to be up for 3 days, but I have to be DRESSED UP for 2 of them!!!!!!!

I really am going to miss our seniors. It sucks. For Me.

I keep trying to make plans with friends, but I just get so darn busy! Things don’t seem to be working out with one in particular whom, I just found out today, is going to lose out AGAIN because my boss is taking a vacation the weekend of the 4th and not coming back until late the 6th!

My mom was upset the USA got beat by Canada in curling. I just couldn’t get the “I’d like you to meet my girlfriend. My girlfriend who lives in Canada” from Avenue Q lyric out of my head! :)

Well, I put cookies in the oven and they’re done now. Almost time for bed, so I can get up when the clock strike RIDICULOUS in the morning! :) Have a GREAT Weekend!

Me In Fours (From Kare)

Me in Fours

Four jobs you've had in your life:

Athletic Trainer
Fundaiser/Special Events Planner
Traffic Person who wrote Guest Passes at SSU
Hostess/Ice Cream Scooper at Friendly's (and I still LOVE their PB sauce!)


Four movies you could [and do] watch over and over:

Bull Durham
The Goonies (Lately)
Clue
Airplane (we've been watching that in the TR too!)
(Hey Kare...DO IT FOR JOHNNY! :) :) )

Four places you've lived:

Salisbury, MD
The Colony, TX
Greensboro, NC
Marlton, NJ

Four fiction books you can't live without:

YA-YA's
The Street Lawyer

And pretty much just those. Don't get me wrong, I love to read, but I can't re-read any book I've already read, b/c it all comes flooding back to me with the opening sentances. So I can't live w/o books, but I could live without most of the ones I've read.

Four non-fiction books you consider essential:

Taber's Cyclopedic Medical Dictionary
The Encyclopedia of Guilty Pleasures
The GRITS Guide To Life
(Are these fiction or non-fiction? I hated Dewey!)
I want to put in another one that's deep, meaningful and shows "higher level" intelligence....but I just can't! :)

Four TV shows you love to watch:

House
Grey's Anatomy
Boston Legal
CSI
(How come I stop watching "teen" chows and my friends take them up?!?!?!)

Four places you've been on vacation:

Bahamas (cruise)
San Diego
Wisconsin
Ft. Myers, FLA

Four websites/blogs you visit daily:

I don't really visit any daily lately....but the first ones I check when I have a second are
Akrsmile.blogspot.com
Karchamb.blogspot.com ]
Lostlush.blogspot.com
Truejerseygirl.blogspot.com
(I'd read yours AJ, if it changed ever! :) )

Four of your favorite foods:

(being in some weird state of hormone, NOT the correct time to write this, but)
Mac and Cheese
Mashed Potatoes
Chili Dogs
Warm Fresh Baked Bread

And out of left field, I've been craving...
Cheese Enchiladas
Warm Chocolate Chip Cookies
Pizza
Dr. Pepper

Four places you'd rather be:

The Carribean (can I list this 4 times?!?!?!? It's freakin' cold up here!)
In the arms of a handsome man
ANYWHERE (It's anywhere, Kare...anywhere! :) ), singing loudly and off key
21 and back in college

Four albums you can't live without:

Little River Band's Greatest Hits, Little River Band (they're performing at Mardi Gras this year! I tried to add them to MySpace, but darn it, they haven't let me!)
Meet Me In Margaritaville, Jimmy Buffett
Love Mix, Jenn Van Hee
The 1's, Beatles

Memories...Light the Corner of my....

Hey!

Does anyone remember where I put the 100 Things About Me List? I can't find it! I searched through every blog I had the attention span to look through and it's nowhere!

This forgetting stuff has been happening alot lately. In the last few weeks I've forgotten my age (figuratively), how to respond when made fun of (inappropriately...hopefully it'll blow over), where I put a picture I haven't seen in 10 years among other things.

Check out MySpace. I added Bode Miller as a friend. No comments. He kinda reminds me of my old roommate Mike in the face. I'm happy I have Bode as a friend! :)

I survived Valentine's Day. Still no closer to being able to think about being with someone forever without hyperventilating, but one thing at a time! :)

I watched the Wedding Crashers on my snow day Sunday. It was cute. I liked it. I think Owen Wilson has a messed up face, but every movie I see him in I'm drawn to him. Think he's a Gemini?

Speaking of Geminis (quick side note, there's a guy from MySpace who's a sports person going through shoulder rehab who I emailed with some encouragement - friend of a friend - anyway, I think he's cute, he lives in Maine, Sox fan....Freakin' Gemini!), I got an email soliciation from my ex-boyfriend Ryan for a race he's in. It said he has been cancer-free for 5 years. It totally threw me. Since he won't answer the email I sent him, I can't tell you any more about it, 'cuz I don't know anymore. Still, I'm totally thrown and not just because I read the email Saturday at 8:30am, but still today am thrown by it. Anyone else?

I'm in some Manic state lately. All the feelings and look of being head over heels in love and not. Can anyone explain this to me?!?!?!?!?

That's it for now. Hope all is well with you all! Happy weekend! :)

Sad Contridiction in Taste

bully
Originally uploaded by Jenn V.

Is it sad my obsessions lately are this......(I'm watching the Westminster Dog Show as we speak)

Sad Contridiction in Taste Part Deux

Mason Aguirre - Snowboarding
Originally uploaded by Jenn V.

And this?

You see how picky I am about my shoes and they only go on my feet. - Clueless

I've come to the realization that I'm picky. I'm sure those that know me well aren't really surprised by this, but it always surprises me.

I see people in passing and think, "Oh, they're cute" or "I'd date him", but when it comes down to it, I don't. Their hair is wrong, they are too loud, they dress funny, their breath stinks, I don't think my friends would like, do they fit with me physically?, they're too skinny or too fat, they're too nice or too mean...you get the picture. I always wonder how people like Paris Hilton or those stupid Olsens always seem to have a boyfriend. Maybe they just aren't picky. I know they probably have a HUGE field of guys banging down their door to date them (although famous ladies like Nicole Kidman and Hallie barry say this isn't true) they can choose from, but to just scoop one up and be with him? I'm guessing they just aren't as picky.

This latest revelation in "picky" came to my attention tonight as I was playing on my MySpace site. I'm trying to figure out how to customize it a few nights ago, when I stumble across the "Browse" section. This is so cool! So, I search for guys in my area. How fun! I look around and after 4 or 5 pages of guys aged 27-35, I quit. I looked at a couple, felt like I had stumbled into a frat house and walked out. :)

So tonight I decided to give myself a boost. (I'm gonna tangent alittle here, but bear with me, I'll come back.)

I'd been watching CNN (since we only get that and the school announcements channel at work) and they were interviewing "The Year of Yes" woman. You know, the woman who said yes to any date for a whole year? For as cool as it sounded and as positive a message she put across, I was cynical. I mean, Hell I could say yes to every date I was offered if I could say "See? I'm writing this book and I'm saying yes to everybody.". This way I wouldn't be a pedophile if a 16 year-old boy asked me out; or a lesbian if a woman asked me out (this woman dated a woman who wanted the author to have a baby for her). "I'm just saying yes for my book or for the experience." This would also be a great way to not have to go on a second date with someone who bored you to tears. Or a way to not break the heart of someone you go out with once and pines for you over a year later. (Sidetrack coming) I mean, it was one date. I was bored. He obviously wasn't right for me, not to mention I was still upset from tne Neil/moving home thing. He still asks if I think I might be read to date again. Never date a friend/collegue of your mother's son. It's just bad news. Ok., I'm back.

Remember how earlier this year or maybe late last year I wrote about how I can take "being bad" into a whole other level of crap? I can do the same with men. I attract all the wrong kind of men - men I'm not attracted to, but are nice, the creepy-he's-got-a car, so-we-keep-him-around friend of hot men, the you're-so-pretty-why-are-you-or-any-other-girl-talking-to-me man, the have-you-met-Jesus man, the I'm-your RA/teacher/authority person-but-I-don't-care man, the I'm-not-ever-monogomous man and my favorite I'm-married/engaged-but-my-wife/fiance's-not-in-town/here man-this latest of this one coming just two or three weekends ago (on a rare night out for me). After the last one, I was driving home thinking "Am I nuts? I keep saying all I want is a date, to have fun, someone who's interested in me and I have someone interested in me and don't want him!" Now, granted the big "HELLO?!?!?! He was married! Lives in Maine! Has been married twice!" bell was going off in my head too. I kept thinking maybe I just wasn't wording it right. Maybe I kept asking for ketchup and getting mustard because I was just saying "condiment" instead of "ketchup". Or maybe I have a weird disease, like that guy on House who wanted one thing, but his brain got confused and picked a word close to it and THAT came out of his mouth. Maybe somewhere my lines were getting crossed. When I asked for reassurance I was attractive, maybe I should've asked for someone who made me feel attractive and was single.

Maybe it should've sounded like "B-O-Y-F-R-I-E-N-D" (Kare, just for you...a song quote "I want all that stupid old (shite), like Letters and Sodas.) and instead came out like "A-N-Y-O-N-E W-H-O W-I-L-L P-A-Y A-T-T-E-N-T-I-O-N T-O M-E.". After tonight, though, it's clear. I'm just too picky.

I was on MySpace and thought I'd give myself a lift. A little of that reassurance that someone IS out there for me. Someone I could at least have some things in common with, be attracted to...maybe go on more than one date with. I "Browsed" for the WHOLE United States this time in the advanced search. I put in all the criteria it let me, except area. It hit for 709 guys! Now, if this were an experiment, we'd have to look at the flaws, so here we go:

-Granted, these were only a sample of people who had a MySpace site, so maybe only a certain type of person had these sites. Not truly a random or representative sample, but enough for an idea. Plus, I have a MySpace site, so maybe people like me would too.

-I maybe should be a little more open minded about age range, but I wanted to do the narrowest scope of my mindset on dating right now.

-The search DID exclude people who hadn't posted pictures, and I excluded those who posted pictures of celebs or cartoons, since I wanted it to be people I found attractive.

-I did only use the broad search criteria provided by MySpace. This doesnt' take into account the ever growing list of things I'd want in a potential mate. That sounds like I'm hard-core husband hunting, but essentially a girl's gotta have a list. I'm sure guys have one too. There's make or break criteria, the fleixble criteria and the "they've got everything else, who cares about these?!?" criteria. There's gotta be a line to draw when dating somewhere.

I'm sure there are other flaws, but oh well. I also wanted to see where they lived. If most of them were in California, then clearly, I am not on the right ocean! :)

Here's what I found - 3. Of the 709 men listed in my search, I found 3 I was somewhat interested in or had interests in common. I did click on a few other pictures and sites, but other than a cute picture, nothing on the listing stood out as, hey, maybe I'd date that guy, so I didn't count them in my final analysis. Of the 3, one was in Maine, one in Austin and one in Utah.

I could go two ways with this. Maybe a picky person would've come up with no one they found even worthy of coffee, lunch or dinner. (Yea!) Maybe a person who is open would've found more. (Boo Hiss!) Figure there are much more men in the entire Untied States that would fit my MySpace criteria than 709 (lets hope!). Then they'd have to weed through my personal criteria (although MySpace covers a couple that are on my make or break list). So, if there's only 3 left after all that and they're spread out all over the country, what are my chances of finding someone to make me happy (mostly - I'm a bit of a realist too! It won't all be roses and kisses, but enough to stay together) "until death do us part"? How does that happen? Is there really a Soul Mate? Or is it just a race to whichever of the 3 I meet first at the right time? Or maybe, maybe I'm just too picky! :) :)