Sunday, May 01, 2005

Inspired By Kare

This is a list of 100 random things about me. The list was inspired by my old roommate, Karen (www.karchamb.blogspot.com).

1. I’m a Leo. When my mom got her due date for the end of August, she was hoping I’d be born late, so I wouldn’t be a stubborn Leo. Instead, I came a week or two early, smack in the middle of Leo-dom! :)

2. Unlike Kare, I don’t read my horoscope too often anymore. Well, I do on the days I read the newspaper, but I don’t hunt it out, like I used to. Inspires too much false hope at times.

3. I feel so much better about admitting to this after reading that Kare does it too. As much as she might jump through the computer and kill me, Karen is the smartest, most informed woman I know. She inspires me to be smarter, to know more, as well as in many other ways. It is so good to know she reads silly magazines and chick lit too! Sometimes, it’s just so nice to escape and be “girly”! :)

4. My favorite books are The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood, The Street Lawyer and any Dr. Alex Delaware book by Jonathan Kellerman.

5. I was never too into movies, but I quote them a lot. Sometimes I just throw quotes into conversation where they seem appropriate. Only a handful of people ever realize I’m not just weird, that I’m quoting a movie and go “OMG, that’s from _________!”

6. Netflix has changed my view of movies. It has also helped me see more recent movies. My favorite new movie, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

7. My “kids” (athletes I see daily) often think I am younger than I really am. :) They also usually assume I’m married. It always throws them to find out I’m 3 ½ months away from 30 and single.

8. I’ve gotten more comfortable with admitting to both of these things above. Including admitting to living with my parents. Although I still feel that the last two because of number one portray me as a failure, ugly or unworthy of society norms.

9. Despite all my teasing and sometimes getting annoyed by them, I have wonderful parents. They have always been supportive of me, loving, caring and have always made it known we always have a place with them.

10. My sister is really probably my best friend, even though we are superficially different. We are fundamentally the same. (Jill, this doesn’t mean you can cuddle with me when we sleep! I know you gravitate towards body heat and always claim you don’t realize you are essentially a heat-seeking missle when you sleep, but you are…stay on your side of the bed! :) )

11. I am pretty gullable. I have a tendancy to believe anything people tell me. I think it stems from the belief that all people are good.

12. I hate people. (“but I love gatherings. Isn’t it ironic?”) I hate people and state this often, mostly because they are selfish (self-centered?) and stupid. :)

13. I usually like everyone right away, unless you prove to me I shouldn’t like you.
I am a unbelievable radar for the most dysfunctional boy in the group.

14. I ALWAYS like him. (even if it’s just to say “he’s my favorite”.)

15. Kare said, “Drunk me often loves people who end up being jerks”. Drunk me loves everyone. (Not quite in the same way as my sister, who, when drunk and out with friends constantly professes “I love you guys!”.)

16. Despite the constant reassurance the I’m pretty (and nice, funny, sweet, etc.) I usually do not have guys knocking down my door. I think I might intimidate them.

17. I have had guys tell me, years later about the crush they had on me, how they thought I was “f-ing adorable” and they would to have loved to date me. Meanwhile, I could’ve told them EVERYTHING on t.v., the nights I cried wondering why no one liked me and how insecure I was about my looks during that time.

18. I completely sympathized with George from Seinfeld on the “I should’ve said…” episode. I do that every moment of my life.

19. My analytical score on the SATs was enormous.

20. The two others that counted…not so much.

21. I’m pretty good at picking up languages and accents, but I don’t know a whole lot in any “foreign” language.

22. My brain often is WAY ahead of my body. It thinks we are multi-lingual. It also thinks we can run a marathon, play the piano, sing on key (in a former year, we could do that. Allergies and no practice have taken their toll), draw beautiful detailed, exact replica pictures and “fry it up in a pan”. The body hasn’t realized this yet, so alas, we cannot do these things. Maybe if we practiced, trained, etc. The potential is there, the talent is not yet.
I’m BIG on potential.

23. My brain and my body are usually out of sync lately. Especially when speaking, typing or writing. I think one thing, yet another comes out.

24. I used to think I was low maintenance. I think I used to be. Compared to others, I might still be.


25. I’ve become high maintenance. Mostly in food related ways. Or health ways.

26. I’ve realized that size in clothes doesn’t matter, but the fit and the fabric do.

27. Also, a good (fitting) pair of underwear (and bras, for the women) is essential to having a good day.

28. I hate wearing glasses. Can’t really get contacts in my eyes (I’ve tried twice, 10 years apart, it just frustrates me). I’m now trying just willing them to be 20/20.

29. I miss sunglasses.

30. I love working outside in the warm weather. (When are we gonna get warm weather?!?!?)

31. And I love working with sports everyday.

32. Every athlete I see in a day is a pretty good kid. I do have my favorites. A couple of them are not derelicts. J

33. I get upset with Google it doesn’t find the EXACT person I am looking for. It should know who I mean. I like Googling old boyfriends, crushes, etc. It never gives me the information I want, though. (Like, are they married? Do they have kids? Do they ever think of me?)

34. Unlike Kare, I’ve had first kisses at bars and parties. Most of the time they’re the only kisses. Once or twice, it’s led to the opportunity for second kisses, but not often. (see # 17)

35. I haven’t ever really been a relationship person.

36. Secretly, I think I’ve always longed to be a relationship person.

37. My goals have always been family-oriented, not career or accomplishment oriented.

38. I love a good goal! (Sports, of course)

39. The 3-point shot in the most beautiful shot in basketball. I think dunking is overrated.

40. Professional athletes are overpaid, spoiled 13 year-olds. Big time college athletes aren’t much better.

41. This should change.

42. I’ve become a lot more active in change. Changes in me (I’m taking piano lessons), changes in others (I’ve started making sure I get answers to kids questions, even if it’s just “Is this Gatorade half-drank or half-drunk?”, whether they really want them or not.) and changes in society (voting, petitions, committees)

43. I don’t like either political party. They both suck. They’re conniving and slimey. I don’t trust politicians. However, I do think the checks and balances we have in place insure that government is doing things in “my” (country) best interest.

44. More should be done in my best interest. The world would be a much better place if everyone lived as I think they should! :)

45. The roads would be much safer if everyone drove as I think they should.

46. I also think we should be able to stop a car, tap on their window and tell them to hand over their keys and their license because they are no longer allowed to drive.

47. In addition to being an “excellent driver”, I am also a fairly decent cook (if not all that healthy). It is a great stress reliever for me.

48. I like planning.

49. I’m a control freak. I admit it.

50. Not real fond of the unknown. While it’s exciting, it’s frustrating and causes me to hyperventilate.

51. I’m trying to get better with this.

52. I’ve started with trying religion. I figure if I can believe…truly believe, not just say it is so because everyone tells me it is…in an invisible deity I can relinquish control to him and then I don’t have to have it. I guess after that I have to admit (s)he’d be better at controlling stuff than I am.

53. It’s hard to believe some of the heartbreak I’ve experienced anyone would think needs to be “gone through”. What deity would allow that? I wouldn’t wish that on someone. I wouldn’t even think anyone should have to go through it. It’s not the way I’d run humanity.

54. I miss my cat. My mom’s cat has adopted me, but just when he wants stuff – like to be petted when mom is gone or to sleep in the empty space in my bed with me. Mav was always there. He never wanted to be anywhere that wasn’t with me. I miss him. (Taking him was like kicking someone when they’re down. But I’m not bitter. :) )

55. I don’t believe that everything happens for a reason. That concept was made up by someone who didn’t know what to say and wanted to make another feel better.

56. I’ve become more negative/cynical/angry/frustrated/short-tempered the older I get.

57. It’s a lot of the traits I wasn’t too fond of in my dad that I find in myself way too often. It bothers me that I annoy me. I’ve tried to suppress a lot of them, but they emerge suddenly, like Terets.

58. I’m a perfectionist, but yet too easily bored with details to be good at it.

59. Same reason I’m not good at crafty things. I’d love to be; too many details.

60. I like using punctuation like semi-colons, commas and hyphens, even though I’m sure I don’t use them correctly and annoy Karen.

61. I like annoying people on purpose. Just long enough to be funny, not too long, so as to be…well….annoying.

62. I like when people laugh.

63. I like to eat. The tastes, the textures…yum!

64. Diner food really has no taste (and probably no nutrition), but you can’t beat it for coffee or dessert. Diner food gets old when you eat it 3-days a week.

65. I’m trying to really like running.

66. I really like my iPod.

67. Some days I work out, just so I can listen to it.

68. I’m a music geek.

69.Sometimes, I’m just a geek.

70.I wish more people were schizophrenic (or “multi-faceted” as I like to call myself) like me.

71. I have a goofy sense of humor.

72. I think it’s funny to tell my mom I’m gonna get married by Elvis in Las Vegas, because she feels very strongly about certain things she’s seen in other people’s weddings that I actually like. I figured Vegas would circumvent any fighting, tantrums or rifts in wedding planning.

73. I really wanna get married on a beach at sunset. I was thinking Sanibel because it’s close, fairly cheap and beautiful. It will probably end up being Cape May.

74. My grandparents got married in Cape May.

75. I will miss my grandparents when they are gone. I wish I knew my other grandparents as an adult.

76. I like the flowers on my desk today, not only because they are pretty, pink and springy, but because one of our tennis players thought enough to pick them up off the ground where they had fallen off a tree and bring them in for me.

77. It’s the same reason I will always love James (and my mom will always remember James) for bringing me dead roses from behind the flower shop in college.

78. And why I have always said I’d married the man who, after I’d worked a long day with no dinner, would make me a PB&J sandwich (unprompted) when I got home.

79. I love flowers. I like nature. Flora and Fauna. However, I am not a granola.

80. I am competitive. I try not to be too competitive, because I’m not as good at things as I once was and I have a way of challenging really good people and getting myself into trouble. I come by it naturally. You all know, you’ve all played ESPN games with my mother! :)

81. When I have on jeans and am driving in my car with the top down, I feel like that is “me”, where I completely, click body, mind and soul meeting.

82. Sunshine is the best thing ever.

83. I have a knack for liking expensive things. I am the expert at walking into a store and picking out the most expensive thing as the one I like.

84. I am also the best bargin shopper. Those women who have shopping shoes make me mad. They pay WAY too much for things and say it’s a bargin. My mom and sister now just follow me around a store (or just give me money to get them something) waiting for me to find cheap (price), but good quality stuff for them.

85. I have way too many clothes. I keep them if they’re still good, but like shopping and having varieties of clothes too much to stop buying new things.

86. I need a bigger space. While living at home with my parents is great, I really don’t have a lot of space for the things I have and thus, overflow into many rooms in the house. It’s caused many arguments.

87. I am not good in awkward conversations. I never know what’s the right thing to say. (Like when a coworker said of another coworker, “you should get together with him”. I don’t really know him, so I don’t know whether I’d like him or not on any level other than the friendly one we are currently on, not to mention the girlfriend he has or the am I or aren’t I attracted to him, so what do you say?)

88. Part of me hates that I care what the right thing to say is, the other part of me is glad my “filter” is still working.

89. I’ve tried to not care so much what other people think.

90. I really care about what my friends think….about anything. It’s hard when everyone goes in their own directions with their own lives. Even though you talk to them occasionally, it’s not as great as when you saw them every day/lived together. I miss that.

91. It’s hard to make friends after college. Even harder to even meet people.

92. I think one of our lacrosse players (Zack) is right, working in a school makes it so much harder to grow up.

93. Growing up sucks.

94. Patrick Dempsey’s character on Grey’s Anatomy is so cute. Smart, cute, emotional. There’s gotta be something wrong with him. Some bad boy side we haven’t seen yet. I’m never attracted to his type in real life. (Just ask my mother!)

95. Does anyone else have someone they’re not really attracted to, but seeing them makes your whole day?

96. When I wrote #92 about Zack and this one, he showed up! It happens to me alot. Foreshadowing and dreams about things happening we only know about after I dream them.)

97. I haven’t decided if it’s bad or not that my entire social interaction involves either my parents or 14-17 year olds.

98. Sometimes I think it’s good to be girly.

99. I’m so upset I didn’t take full advantage of naptime when I was younger. I think I should get make-ups.

100. Trust, when you realize you have it – either for another person or from them – is a pretty amazing thing.

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