The Dating Game

Hi All!

My summer is a little more than 1/2 over and I'm simulataneously bored and ready for a vacation. I keep thinking that I'm so not happy with the direction of my life and don't see it changing any time soon. I have been trying to motivate myself to change. As a famous person once said "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got.".

I decided to try and control the things I think I can control and pray like crazy about the things I can't. I've been trying (apparently not too hard) to get my lazy, tired behind out of bed on Sunday mornings and go to church. My Aunt swears that "if you want a quality fish, you need to look in a quality pond". I'm not really sure this is where I want to look for a boyfriend (and I HATE the fact I have to look or "shop" or whatever desperate-type things I'll be doing) but I'm going to try and not rule anything out. I've also been browsing eHarmony. I go back and forth about it but I figure it can't hurt to see if there's anyone out there I'm interested in. It's been hard. I hate to say that I keep wondering exactly what the person on the profile looks like, trying to figure them out and pretty much figuring I won't be attracted to any of them. It's pretty hypocritical since I am a person on the other end of one of these profiles. I still just can't bring myself to do it.

It is not an easy world out there for dating after college and unfortunately I am not getting any younger. I never thought I'd feel like this, or go through this. Always kind of made fun of those that did and figured I'd be young forever. It's been a rough year and I wish the time between years would slow down instead of speeding up. As another year of my life rolls to a close, it looms larger and larger in my mind - how the things I've wanted for my life are the things that constantly seem to elude me. I have much to be thankful for and I realize that, but I still want the dream that is beyond my reach and feels out of my control. The more things I add to that out-of-control list the more stessed I become.

Does dating and meeting people EVER get easier?!?!?

-Song by Insane Clown Posse