Emotions are funny things. You're never sure when they're going to hit you or what they're going to be. A week ago my friend, S offered to set me up with a guy she used to work with. We've conversed briefly over FB and, though it's still in the early stages, I feel no wow. Should I? Can you really get to know someone over email enough to know you don't think it's a direction you want to head? I'm not really sure. What I do know is this is the only real emotion I'm feeling about anything.
Life is moving along similar to driving in a fog. I have stopped feeling anger and frustration over my day-to-day and am just moving along in a state of "just keep swimming". My only real emotion is a "aww crap" at the returning of an email, the thought of actually meet or conversing on the phone and I'm not sure why, since we're just a hair past pleasantries. Maybe it's fear or maybe I've just become so content at being alone, in my zone, I don't want to throw something else into it. With other things going on in life, I'm thinking maybe just holding myself together and worried something else will upset the balance. Or, I just know deep down I want something more.
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