Hey Everybody!

Isn't Spring wonderful?!?!? Not that I would know today...it's snowing here. However, the idea of spring filled me yesterday in our 66 degree day. The renewing, the beginnings, the hope.

It didn't hurt my bosses daughter, who is also a sophomore here, seems to be beginning a relationship. or trying. They went to WaWa before their practices for a Snapple. Anyone seeing a trend? Here's an even bigger RED LIGHT for similarity....he's got lots of potential, but is a bit of a jerk...cocky....full of himself, but is a pretty nice guy all-in-all. I wanted to scream "runaway", to let her know all the things great guys with potential will get her...heartache, roller coaster type relationships, frustration.

But then I remember exactly why I am/she is/we are attracted to these kinds of guys...the adreneline rush, the beeming of the face, the warm swelling feeling inside just thinking about them, and exploring a bit of your edgier side. It's such a strong pull. The need to be a little bad once in awhile. I'm pretty sure it's alot stronger (though I can only speak from one side of this) in those responsible, mature, well-behaved since birth girls. The need to let loose, enjoy life and what better way than dating someone who seems to be everything you are underneath, but fully lives his edgy side (just this side of legal and staying out of trouble, mind you).

I think it's why I'm so excited at the prospect of this year's lacrosse season. It reminds me of a time when I through "expected" to the wind and lived a "college life" for a change. It was the spring of my Senior year in college. I only had to be in the training room now and then, as I had technically fulfilled my training requirements and had nothing to do, but go to class. My most recent ex-boyfriend (at the time) had left me the previous spring for one of my softball players. The fall had found me heartbroken, working in NJ as an intern at the very high school by which I am now employed. Spring marked the return to the campus, facing him and a void in my life all around. But it was spring. My roommate and I went to the local shelter and picked up a little homeless kitten named Mike. We quickly changed his name to Maverick...a little Tom Cruise in Top Gun and a bit Mel Gibson in Maverick. A rebel at the shelter with an "I don't care about you attitude" and the cutest little face. When I brought him home, he slept on my head. So much for "I don't care about you".

But one rebelious deed was not enough...I was feeling free and wild and, well...maybe just a little full of myself. So, I picked up another rebel. This one was a lacrosse player by the name of Scott. Similar to a homeless kitten, Scott followed me home one night and just kind of hung around the rest of the year. As rebels do when they both want something, they clashed at first. Mav showed me by peeing in my closet. Luckily, Scott had some sense not to do the same! :) While I really cared for Scott, I knew that I would be graduating, so a light, non-possessive relationship was what I was expecting. luckily, it's exactly what he was expecting and I was always pleasently surprised by him. Graduation came and leaving wasn't so hard. I got to take my favorite rebel with me to North Carolina and I took the wonderful memories of my other one.

I've been missing one, if not both of them lately with the approach of Spring. Watching Amanda experience the joys (and some confusion) of a new relationship makes me remember all the reasons to expect wonderful things in the spring.