Over and Over Again....

I suck.

Yep. Happy New Year. I suck.

I was reading Kare's blog and thought, yeah, I'll look at my resolutions too. I'm positive I accomplished them all this year! It just kind of reinforced a few things I know about myself, but am too optimistic to outwardly believe:

1) I have NO sticktuitiveness for things (I blame my ADD, when really, I should just buckle down and make myself). I cave so easily. I am excellent at convincing myself not to listen to myself.

2) I am optimistic to a fault. The fault being I am a dreamer with my head in a fairy tale and don't listen to the realist me reminding me of #1.

3) I suck. ;)

See? I'm bananas. (Best word I could come up with, even with the help of Thesaurus.com! :) ) So, here's my blog/list from last year with bold commentary from me this year! :)

So, in the spirit of New Year's resolutions I'm recycling past resolutions for this year. (See I recycled last year's resolutions from some previous years. See what I mean about sticktuitiveness?!?!? Wonder how many years I've been carrying these over? )

1. Lose 15 pounds I actually gained 10. So far since the New Year, I've lost 6. YEAH ME! :)

2. Start running again (making #1 SO much easier)I did this for a few weeks, but once it got fairly easy, I quit. It was too much time to get to the gym, run, sweat, then come home.

3. Keep my floor clean (which hopefully will be easy once I clean it tonight) I cleaned it in time to ring in 2006, does this count? Otherwise, I don't think I truly saw my floor since week 3 of 2005.

4. Learn Spanish I have been learning some words. I can't repeat them. I'm nowhere close to fluent. I have no patience for less than fluent. Hence, the Spanish lessons are slow going.

5. Learn to play the piano Here again...I took some lessons with our band teacher. Then school ended and our piano is out of tune. It sits in the room that is dad's office, so I can't have them tune it while he's at work during he week. The one trip he went on, he had people paint the inside of the house. So, our piano is still out of tune and I still can play one chord.

6. Get better about keeping in touch with friends and family Um....how many of you feel like I've dropped off the face of your earth? I feel like I have too. I'll try harder this year. I mean, I'm already doing well. I emailed Kare today in response to her Dec. 20th email about getting together over the holiday. :) Maybe if I can complete my resolution 1) for this year, I'll be better at this one from last year.

7. Eat better I have done this. I've become a better eater! :)

8. Help out more around the house I've tried. I've failed, I think, but I've tried.

9. Save money I had to do this. I saved and saved last year, then travelled and travelled this summer. I'll save and save again this year! :)

10. Be more patient Done. Check. One down, 9 to go! :)

Maybe this time around, these resolutions will actually get crossed off the list of things to do. I hope you all have a great New Year and keep every resolution you set in 2005.

Well, instead of promising that for this year, I've decided to break the chain and NOT recycle my howevermanyyearsold New Years Resolutions listed above. I'm creating new ones.....

1) Do something newsworthy. One of the reasons I don't keep in touch well is because I don't really have anything new to ever report to anyone. I want this to change. Good things, maybe yummy scandalous things...but at least something worthy to report to my friends on the phone.

2) Go out on a date. I'm resolving to only one date, because I want to be able to accomplish at least one on this list. Maybe this year I can shake the "He's not Neil" demons and appreciate someone for who they are...at least long enough to get through one date! :)

3)Be the best me I can be! And love the idiosyncratic things about me that may one day make me a great David E. Kelley sitcom! :) (I already do, but maybe accept them and not deny them is a better phrase than love them)

I'm sticking with 3. I should be able to accomplish 3. Maybe if I can get through 3, then it disproves the "sticktuitiveness" thing I knew about me at the beginning of this blog. AND, if we throw THAT out the window, then it proves I can change and I don't NEED to accept my idiosyncrases, because I can change, which I think negates number 3. :) So really, maybe I'm only resolving 2 things and everyone else in the world should learn to embrace and love me for me! :)

How hard can 2 resolutions be?!?!?!? Here we go, 361 days left. The race is on! :) Happy 2006 Everyone! Hope you get through your list before time runs out! :)