To Sleep Perchance to Dream

Haven't been sleeping real well. I think I'm still having trouble figuring out which side of the bed to sleep on. It's weird when you LOVE to sleep, LOVE your bed and suddenly aren't fond of either. I keep rearranging pillows, swithcing sides of the bed, rolling and moving and changing for hours at night. I finally do fall asleep and then, don't want to wake up.

For the last 3 weeks or so my belly has been a mess. It feels like a balloon that you know you are overfilling, but just keep filling to see how far you can push it. Only problem is, I'm not feeding it alot, it's not matter what I eat or how little of it, my belly immediately inflates. SOOO not fun!

These two things have made me a little irritable I think. I don't think I'm outwardly irritable, but I don't feel like myself. I think for the last few months I've been waiting for the day when I wake up and feel like my old self. I'm not doing it justice in terms of explanation, but I know what I mean! :) I feel out of sorts, like something is off and am waiting for it to right itself.

Tonight I'm spending some down time watching the Dog show. I like the dog show. They dogs are so cute, but when they poke and prod and move them around I keep thinking "why don't you just let them be dogs?!?!" They need to...awww...basset hound with LOTS of wrinkles! :) He's ADORABLE!!!!!!! O.k. um where was I? Oh yeah, I'd love to judge them on how "dog" they are. Do they chase things? Like Fire Hydrants? Dig in the dirt? Chew socks? Now THAT would be a GREAT dog show to watch! :)

In the same vein, today we had a girls soccer player who was pretty much told by her ODP (club/township team) coach that she shouldn't play in the high school STATE FINAL game on Saturday beause she needs to be able to play all week from Sunday on in Florida where they are going for a tournament/clinic. The girl already has a commitment to college and is a Junior in high school. I've never seen a girl's face light up quite the way I did when she was talking about ACTUALLY getting to go to our Homecoming Dance now that she had put her Florida trip off ONE DAY beause of the State Finals. She was in tears and on the verge of an ulcer at the rock and a hard place this coach had put her in. Why can't we let teenagers in sport just be teenagers? She has worked so hard her whole life to train for making it to the elite in Girls' Soccer. She has made it! Why not let her enjoy being a high school girl for at least a day. I was heartbroken looking at her today because no 16 y.o. should be tug-of-war'd like that.

Alright, off for the Bulldog group! :) Night Night my little ones! :)