Hi guys!

First I'd like to say Football sucks! My picks are sinking me lower and lower and each week they look REAL good before the games start! :)

Now, on to other stuff. As you all know, or should, I am unemployed again. I had an interview today with a company my temp agency sent me to, but I had to turn them down. The job was basically shuttling papers from one department to another and I couldn't justify it to myself. I know having income is a good thing, but lately I feel like I'm moving further and further away from my life. Not that I have a plan or goals or anything, I just feel like I'm moving completely backwards in life. Pretty soon I'll be wearing diapers and gurggling again! :)

My nightmares are back. (for those of you keeping score at home! :) ) Very cyclical I'm starting to think, but I have no idea what triggers them.

I was watching John Edwards last night and he was reading a woman who was hearing from her late husband. She was young, probably 40's somewhere, and he was saying she had moved on and was seeing someone new. John said the husband was saying her being with someone new was a gift; like a tribute; She loved what he and she had together so much, she wanted to feel like that again. What a nice thought. I was so happy to hear that, then I realized...I want pain. :) I want remorse for leaving and aching b/c he misses me. I want him never to feel like he did with me again with anyone else...ever. so, maybe you get nicer when you're dead! :)

In any case, I'm blowing off the gym today, heading to the grocery store and then to get my hair chopped. Not quite sure how, but something drastic and different. Studies show when women are bored or going through changes or need a jump start in life, they change their hair! :) So, I'll try and get a picture and send it through email, for those of you who won't see me in the next week or so.

For all others, happy non-Yankees and Braves Playoffs! (Sorry Hank, Kare and AJ...but hate in rivalry runs deep! ) And Keep your fingers crossed my football picks get better. Night!