Hi All! this is gonna be quick b/c I'm tired and sunburned and need to go to bed.

Got home from the shore tonight and in checking my email about a BBQ tomorrow, got an email from Neil. He's not coming. I guess in a way I should be relieved. It aleviates alot of stress in the coming week, but I'm also very crushed. The email was polite ("thank you for responding to my email"), quick ("coming through to Trenton Sunday night,not staying for Philly. Leaving Monday b/c I have to be home" - No doubt for Christy's b-day. At least he remembers hers), and a little more callous than the other two...(something about me speeding through our parking lot, various looks I gave him, him passing on the bad times, but maybe we can get together in the future, etc.)

After tonight, I really do believe if God DOES exist, he's capable of torture and watching people repeatedly suffer. Now if you'll excuse me...I think I'll retreat to January 2001.